Adversity

Sorry About Sporadic Posting

by CZeitler

I’m sorry I have not posted in a while. I have been trying to get some things related to my business accomplished, however, I have also recognized where all of my emotional and physical energy has been going.

To begin with, I am the type of person that if I surround myself (on purpose or accident) with negativity it completely drains me of energy, increases my anxiety, depresses me, and causes my IBS to get out of control. I recognize this about myself. According to my therapist I also have a hard time letting people in and when I do then I do whatever I can for them. Recently I have realized that someone that is undergoing their own mental health problems has been utilizing my compassion and friendship as a dumping ground for their negativity. At one point I had asserted that I could not take a ton of negative energy that day, their response was if I cannot talk about anything negative then I have nothing to talk about. Subconsciously, this triggered me to realize that if I want them to feel free to talk to me at all I HAD to absorb their negativity. This means that anytime that person asks me, “Are you okay to hear about this?” I felt that I had to respond yes, I was okay or they would shut down. Again, my attachment causes me to be blind toward these things until I am run down and messing my health up.

I had come to this realization before my trip. I was dreading the trip, my therapist did say that I could only provide the framework for a good experience and everything else is up to the guest. I am sorry about the car ride, they say that they forgave me, but they are also being very passive-aggressive.

If you come away from spending time with someone drained, and you dread seeing someone, then they are not the right person for you to be spending time with.

My energy for the next three months is going to be focused elsewhere. This is the last of my focused attention that person gets.

In terms of the crafts I have been working on:

One of my Aunts asked me to do some embroidering (on my embroidery machine) for her. This caused me to look at other websites that have embroidery files available, and it is amazing some of the artwork out there! There is some chatter about restrictions being placed on patterns, what I have seen is most of the retailers are trying to restrict large businesses from taking their artwork and doing major production with it. I’m not going to do that, though I do question whether they are able to restrict access that way. I’m not planning on doing any major production, however I am hoping to create some book covers for notebooks having to do with Pride right now. After that is done, and I have sent my Aunt all of the pieces she requested (and more of course), I am going to play a lot more with my Embroidery Machine and some of the amazing patterns available out there.

My garden is coming along pretty well, though I did thoroughly drown my carrots. I am going to take some time this week, since I took time off of work for another friends wedding that is not happening now (long story not mine to tell but the couple is still happily together), to work on my garden and figure out how I can mow around all of my planters. I might also just work on making paths/planting into the ground, so that I don’t have any grass growing in my front yard. I already put down landscaping fabric so that a lot of the grass is killed in the medium between the sidewalk and the road. After the grass dies down I plan on planting tons of bulbs to create beauty.

Okay, I have to get back to my full-time job now. Remember that no one is worth your health and happiness, Live Life A Little More Abstract!

All Work and No Play

by CZeitler

I’ll be the first to admit, I have been having a hard time drawing a line between time to work and time to play. Even during my time to play, I discovered I like playing alone. There is a Mine that has Quartz about 5 hours from my home. I decided to take a day trip there with a friend. I wish I could say it was a great time, unfortunately, I did not have a lot of fun. I spent more time worrying about whether my friend was having fun, and trying to entertain them, than I did enjoying myself. The whole trip got cut short due to grit in an eye then we took a detour to go shopping for something they wanted, and then they don’t like my driving (I drive defensively and had to stop short a few times). This proved to me, if I want to take a trip I’m just going on my own or with family that I know enjoy this type of adventure (or at least are willing to fake it for my sake).

In that vein I took a trip out to a local lake and enjoyed myself immensely. Dangling my feet in the water, having a personal picnic, taking time to watch how the refraction of light on the water made the stones look like they were rippling instead of the water, as well as getting some stitching done. I had so much fun, that I decided to make a promise to myself this summer. I am going to take the time to work on myself. No guilds, as little time with negative people as possible, visiting with friends and family, as well as enjoying my vacations.

I hope that you remember to have fun, and don’t let work/negative people consume you. Live Life A Little More Abstract!

Sometimes the Answer is No

by CZeitler

I know that it has been a month since I last posted. This past month has been a period of time where I end up having problems with library patrons, apparently some kind of rodent decided to chew a wire in my car, and the bannister leading upstairs decided to shear off at the metal. However, I still managed to go to Herkimer NY to check out the Herkimer ‘Diamond’ Mine with a friend of mine.

I have still tried to be productive, I did have a single person come to my fiber prep class. They were signed up for my spinning class, however, they got the flu and had to back out. I have several batts ready to be spun for sale, as well as some yarn I spun. There is always something to do. I’m trying to sew up some microwavable potato sacks. There is no one signed up for my Saturday Class, I’m looking at that as a way for me to take my time and relax for a day.

I did find out that hexagons are not working very well as an easy English Paper Piecing bowl, so I am going to have to try Pentagons next. I’ll use the hexagons to make some awesome pincushions instead.

I hope that the next week or so find you having an amazing time, and remembering that there is no happiness without some sorrow. Remember to Live Life a Little More Abstract!

Putting Objectives to the Universe While Taking Steps Yourself

by CZeitler

I keep forgetting that not everything is up to me, there is a universe out there ready to give me a hand while I help myself. Part of this is coming out because I’m listening to The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron and she is very much into the idea of a higher power, though she does admit that this can be any higher power you choose to worship, that is ready to help us out. A portion of this does come through, getting my downspout repaired and having more opportunities open up to me. I was wrestling with a ladder I borrowed from a friend trying to figure out how I was going to position the ladder between my porch and the Natural Gas meter that was placed right under my downspout when my neighbor came out to offer a hand. I accepted gratefully, he looked at the ladder and admitted that neither of us should get up on that ladder, so he mentioned that he had a friend that could fix the downspout. Yay! Of course it cost about half as much as a new ladder would have and I provided all of the supplies, so I was a bit put out because of that, but my downspout is fixed. I was able to get a gift card for some of the supplies from a survey site I participate in, so part of the supplies were free.

Soon after that I found out that someone that belongs to a guild I used to attend, right now I’m taking a hiatus until I get my credit card debt resolved, was opening up a new fiber arts store and they were looking for a teacher. Of course I volunteered, so I now have three classes and 8 ‘hang out’ sessions scheduled for her shop in May. This will be a great opportunity to promote her supplies, my skills, and library programming that we have to offer.

I have been steadily paying toward my debt, making other sacrifices to get this debt paid off. I sold a loom that I was not using to move forward to that goal. I recently heard from my accountant, yes I pay someone to do my taxes, and while I did not earn enough in my business in 2023 to make the paperwork worth it, I have returns from state and federal. If I throw one of that toward my debt I should be able to get my final credit card resolved. That will still leave me some leeway to take some trips that I feel I really need to take. Visiting friends and family that I have long neglected as well as taking a few small day trips to allow myself the chance to enjoy life rather than just exist.

By keeping these goals in mind I will be able to make progress toward larger goals. Getting my spending under control, making progress toward learning new crafts/arts, having fun, getting my house clean, make deeper connections to my friends and family.

Life is meant to be lived, I need to figure out what that means to me. In the meantime, remember to Live Life A Little More Abstract!

Back to Etsy for Now

by CZeitler

Okay, so I did make one direct sale on Facebook and it really did come in handy since I am also trying to start building my own displays for the jewelry I am making. Right now I have re-opened my etsy store with plenty of earrings and some necklaces. ALittleMoreAbstract.etsy.com

Below are a small selection of the earrings I have been making, they are all on sale right now in my etsy shop with free shipping.

I’ve also made a couple of necklaces, and I will be putting some Embroidered Pendants on sale later this week, likely Tuesday morning.

As you can tell I have been very busy crafting. I also have been destashing all of my ‘good yarn’ to afford a ladder to repair my downspout. This just became a bit more urgent since I found out that the water is seeping into my foundation. If you are interested in bargain priced yarn then you can check out my destash link here: https://www.ravelry.com/people/czeitler/stash/trade/

As you can see I have been trying to ‘hustle’ a bit to get some more income. I’ve also found some Skillshare workshops that have been helping me to price my works in a reasonable way. So that has been my last couple of weeks, hustling to create, trying to build up my website, and working on getting rid of a few items that I no longer use. I hope that your week goes well and you remember to Live Life a Little More Abstract!

Not What I Hoped For

by CZeitler

So, I took my rocks out of the tumbler after the final polish. I was excited but let them dry for 3 days before looking at them…and I was so disappointed. I think I know what I did wrong, so I will be taking all of my stones back to the second step and letting it run for a week to see if that will get the scrapes out of these rocks.

I believe that the problem is that I included the small/tiny rocks into the tumbling batch. I think that the tiny rocks banged up and scratched on the rocks that were ready to be polished. At least I hope so.

I plan on taking the rest of the rocks out of the second tumbler on Saturday morning to see if any of them are ready to go onto the second step, and then put those that are not ready back into the tumbler for the first step.

Thanks for reading my update, I’m still working hard on making jewelry and trying to sell on Facebook and Instagram under A Little More Abstract. I hope to have another post on Sunday, but if not then I will see you next week (hopefully with some pretty stones to show off).

Remember to Live Life a Little More Abstract!

God Laughs Harder

by CZeitler

Okay, so as a follow up I still haven’t gotten much done over the past two weeks. My stomach flu came back with a vengeance that Tuesday so I had to call off of work Wednesday. Then the following week my allergies stuffed up my head to the point that I was very dizzy. I took the medication, however, when I reclined to take a nap until the effects kicked in, I became nauseous and did when you do when you’re dizzy and nauseous for about 2 hours. 

Needless to say I called in sick to work again. Now I have switched my allergy medications, which should last 24 hours, to the night before and I am looking into getting an air purifier to help with these problems. 

All of this being said, I have not gotten nearly as much done as I would have liked. Just this morning, the last nice day for quite a while, I managed to get my rain barrel put together and outside, though I am still working on getting my downspout reattached. I have some crafting plans as soon as I get my house in some form of order, so hopefully I can get the organization done this weekend and get started on crafting again!

Life is full of ups and downs, sometimes the ride makes you nauseous, sometimes euphoric, but you have to stay in the cart and keep riding along. Live Life a Little More Abstract!

Man Plans, God Laughs

by CZeitler

I have been trying to get my house in order as I mentioned in the last post. Over the past week I have managed to get three small dressers put together and I started putting together the wider set of drawers. Then I had to get ready for work, after my shower I noticed a really bad smell coming up the stairs…my sewer had backed up. I scheduled a RotoRooter visit to be the most convenient around my work schedule, and then I decided to give myself a treat and order KFC while inviting a friend over for dinner. That was Friday, I quickly remembered why I don’t order KFC, it upsets my stomach. I had signed up for a class on Saturday Afternoon, so I did not eat much for breakfast since I wasn’t hungry, went to the class, and ordered something quick and cheap for lunch/dinner….

I wanted to finish putting the set of drawers together and hauling some things upstairs for storage. Yeah. Instead either KFC hit me really hard or I had a 24 hour Stomach Flu. I’ll spare you the details, but I didn’t get anything done Saturday other than finding out that Door Dash will send you a 7-11 order that arrives at 1:14am (clear soda and saltines). I then spent all of Sunday sleeping and occasionally getting up and trying to drink clear soda and eat a few saltines.

Needless to say I am here, at work on my lunch break, feeling dehydrated and frustrated that I accomplished very little this past weekend.

I’m hoping that the week shapes up to be better, and that I can down enough liquids over the day to combat some of this dehydration. I hope that your week goes well and that you remember to Live Life A Little More Abstract!

No Crafting Content Yet

by CZeitler

Okay, so I have not gotten any real crafting done even though it is over half-way through January. I went to visit family, I was supposed to stay for 4-5 days, then they planned a reunion type event so the stay was extended to 10 days…then two flights were cancelled and I wound up staying closer to 13 days. Fortunately with the holiday I wound up missing only a single day of work and I discovered that I can easily make the drive by myself, since I had to rent a car to get back to my car at the airport.

I had a ton of fun visiting with my Aunts, Uncles, cousins, and cousin’s children while I was there. For a long time I was working 3-4 jobs and taking care of mom so I was unable to go to any family events, plus mom didn’t really want to, so I have a huge gap of time where I lost touch. It is great that I am able to get to know my relatives as adults.

All of that being said, I did not get much crafting done. I brought and completed a small portion of my Tula Nova EPP, however I do not have a photo of it. What I did gain however is a better understanding of what kind of organization might work well for me. One of my cousins has 2 very busy children, however they manage to keep their items in, relative, check with the use of storage furniture. Not just bookcases but storage with drawers that can be labelled. I know, this is not revolutionary information, however I’ve been trying to get away with the cheapest form of storage possible and it just isn’t working. The bookcases always look sloppy and the plastic drawers can rarely hold anything well. I tried ordering Ikea furniture however there were some shipping problems so instead I have some dressers arriving from Home Depot.

Hopefully these can help me to get my materials under control and my home looking like a home instead of a wreck….which honestly right now it looks like a wreck.

Since I am going to focus on getting things in check, then using the supplies I own before purchasing more, my shop is going to take a brief hiatus. I am thinking about switching to a quarterly model where I plan on having a new set of items available every 3 months or so. 

I think this is probably enough of an update for now. I’ll hopefully have some crafting content next time, however it might also be some organizing content.

Until next time remember to Live Life a Little More Abstract!

Ups and Downs

by CZeitler

Life is so very funny some days, weeks, and months. **I’m going to be frank about some medication complications of antibiotics, if you want to skip the medical stuff, well I was planning to talk about crafts but the rest of the post devolved into strategies for my store and a little bit of whining. I’m hoping to have some great photos of the crafts I’ve been making in the next post Mid-January.

I was on a Stay-Cation earlier this month, I had Wednesday through Sunday off to enjoy myself and get things done around my house. I was extremely productive, I managed to get quite a few things cut out and sewn to go up on my Etsy Shop. I also had my first sale at my Etsy shop, which allowed me to realize I priced that type of item much too low considering boxing, postage, and the cut Etsy took out. All of that was lovely, I had tickets to the Livestream of Sorted Food to watch over Saturday and Sunday, I find them so funny. I ate a little too much on Saturday so when I woke up extremely dizzy on Sunday I thought it was likely my blood sugar, I took Motion sickness medication and went back to sleep for a few hours. I spend Sunday and Monday getting my blood sugars down so that I could ensure it was not Acetone Acidosis, which put me in the ICU for a week when I was first diagnosed. On Tuesday I called into my regular doctors office to see if they could see me, I had realized that as I rolled onto my left side I got dizzy. They were able to make an appointment for my day off, Wednesday. I went in, it was an Inner ear infection, so I was put onto an anti-biotic that I am able to tolerate. I didn’t think anything of it but to make sure I had medicine if I had gastrointestinal side effects. I was very surprised when I woke up at 3 am Friday to find out that I had a different kind of side effect. It turns out that Antibiotics can kill off beneficial bacteria, such as the kind that keep yeast at bay. So I suffered until the pharmacy opened at 7am, whimpered at the person opening the doors that told me they were not allowed to open the doors until a pharmacist arrived and theirs was running late, bought the medication that works in 1 day, and went home to see if I felt better in an hour so I could go to work. After oversleeping my alarm, I found out I did not feel well enough to go to work, and had to call off. I’m not sure what it is about vacations but I always seem to get sick at the tail end of them, oh well.

All of that being said, I did have a good vacation overall. I managed to cut and sew quite a few bags in a style similar to the Japanese Knot Bags you can find on YouTube and other places. The bags are reversible and will be available in my store early 2024. It occurred to me while I was cutting out and sewing different bag patterns that my store seems to be going in a Textile direction, I had originally thought I would be a mostly Resin shop. Since Textiles have different federal regulations I am going to put my store on Vacation until about Mid-January when my tags should be in and I should have a decent stock to put up and start advertising. One of the things that I have to keep in mind for my store is that I created A Little More Abstract as a way to sell the items that I create to help support my creative exploration, if I am not careful I will be creating only to sell not for creative exploration. Thanks to Elizabeth Goddard’s Christmas Party I now have access to a lot of different courses for free that should help me build my business. 

Right now it is my plan to take part in at least one of the courses each weekend I am physically and emotionally able to. While it is a little early to be focusing on New Year’s resolutions I am planning on focusing on making sure that I am eating protein and vegetables before I worry about the bills. This does not mean that I will stop paying my bills, or that I will be dining on Filet Mignon, it just means that my focus will be on making sure that I have healthy foods in the house and then cover the bills, if I have to pay a slight late fee next month on something then I might have to do that. Hopefully my store will allow me to skip that step and I will have at least a slight income to keep the wolves at bay. I could talk about how if I had a second income in the form of a spouse, how I have a full-time job, make just a tiny bit too much for assistance, or so many other circumstances, but all of that will sound like whining. 

I am very lucky to be where I am. I own my home, in conjunction with the bank, I own my car, in conjunction with the car loan company, and I can pay my bills, if I forgo meat and vegetables most of the time. Many people are in the same boat as I am, however I already have several plans for how to get out of the rut I am in. As I stated in my last post, I’m a Dandelion. If I get sick, fall behind, or run into trouble, I will bounce back up again….often with a vengeance. That obstacle will be hammered down. 

Okay, that is enough philosophy and whining for this post. I hope that everyone has Happy Holiday’s whatever you celebrate and a Happy New Year!

Remember to Live Life a Little More Abstract and Be Like a Dandelion, don’t let them get you down or they win!