Honestly, I have had a really rotten three weeks. A single phrase in an e-mail that I did not recognize as aggressive led to a meeting. That meeting led to me feeling cornered, feeling cornered led to me snapping at the big boss. Whoops. I had an emergency meeting with my psychiatrist, who told me he saw this coming, which resulted in my being put on a mild anti-depressant. I feel as though I am on a more even keel because the anti-depressant actually helped a lot with the anxiety I knew I was feeling, I was unaware of how much anxiety I was feeling however. This week is 2 weeks after the precipitating event, I am not sure if the big boss is satisfied with my progress. Of course, now at two weeks out I have come down with a cold that I am trying to stop developing into an upper respiratory infection, as colds tend to do.

Things that I have learned:

Anti-Depressants = Anti-Anxiety medications. If you are anxious then stressful situations make that worse which means that your reactions tend to be out of proportion.

Taking a day where I don’t worry about being productive, doing the dishes, or anything really is my form of self care. So is crafting, but I need to be in a better place to feel up to crafting.

I am sure that there are more lessons in there, probably one about taking Dayquil when you know that it doesn’t react well with Diabetes and High Blood Pressure, but I’m willfully ignoring that one until I get through work. (I’m taking less than half of a regular dose and will not take any for the next two days. If my symptoms are manageable by time I need to get back to work I’ll stop altogether.)

Until next time, do a craft for me, and Live Life a Little More Abstract.