It has been a couple of weeks since I have posted here. Some of you that have been reading this for a while will remember me mentioning my Mother a couple of times. She and my Grandmother, her mother, are my inspiration for crafting. There has never been a time that crafting was not a part of my life, I remember getting scraps of yarn and making tons of crochet chains to hang around the house. Mom was so very proud of all of the crafts that I became involved in, she said that Grandma would be so proud of me. While my grandmother has been gone for over a decade, I had mom with me. As you can probably tell from my use of past tense, Mom passed on Friday October 19th after a very bad night. She was mere hours away from coming home for hospice, but after how bad that last night was I can only be glad that she did not suffer.
I, along with my tans-gender sibling whom was born John but prefers to be called Phoebe, have spent the last week straightening out her papers, arranging and attending her funeral, and all of those things that need to be done when one life ends and others need to go on. We are fortunate to have a very large family that are extremely supportive, if not very close by. I overheard one of them stating that I was devastated, and cannot deny that. I do miss mom extremely, however I am lucky in that I am not often given to introspection. I prefer to try and look forward, while remembering those that I loved and the contributions that they have made to my life.
I will take a year to explore who I am now and what is important to me. I will explore some things that I had neither the time nor energy to explore, and I will not make any huge changes until at least a year has passed. There are small things that I will change, trying to eat better, cook more, explore flavors and cultures, exercise more, say yes to outings, and so much more. A very good friend of mine has asked if I want to go to a show over Veterans Day weekend, and I have said that this sounds good. I purchased a rotisserie chicken and made some curry using one of the chicken breasts. (I’m not really impressed by the flavors, but I would like to try it with a more robust meat and different vegetables, maybe some vindaloo paste.) Sometimes I feel that I am not mourning enough, but I will always miss both of my parents, it will hit me like a ton of bricks at times.
Mom is with Dad, in Heaven, and they are looking over all of the family. May they both rest in peace in the light of the Lord. God Rest Their Souls.